Details!

ok- I have been flooded with questions, so I am going to do my best to answer them here. Sorry, it took me a few days. It was bound to happen- despite my neurotic hand washing and my best friend purell...I got a cold. It's just a cold- nothing more since I am not even running a fever but I feel like le crap. I can't breath through my nose and I officially apologize for calling Taylor Potts - "snot rockets" because that seems to be my current state. Sorry- TMI but hey you all have lived through much worse on my blog- drain tubes, vac packs, debriding stories. See, snot is minimal!

1. Moving to Corpus Christi = Better opportunities for our family. Matt and I have agonized over staying in Lubbock for years and years due to his career. Better things for him career wise in CC plus the milder weather is bound to help me pain wise. You all know how I become a hermit in the bitter cold winter because my pain spikes to almost intolerable levels. I am not so naive to think that my chronic pain will disappear but I do think I will stay in better control when I am not constantly fighting " weather bone pain" also.

2. I will continue to see my doctors in Lubbock for the time being. That means I will be flying back fairly often but I am getting to the point of seeing the important doctors every 6 months.

3. We found a cute house on a cul-de-sac. The neighborhood is great- lots of children on the street. The kid's school is 5 minutes from our house

4. We are moving right before Christmas, I know it's so soon! Actually, our stuff will be leaving on a moving truck on December 11th. Matt will be going down with one car to meet the movers while I stay here with the kids to finish the last week of school. I will be bouncing around from grandparent to grandparent that last week since we are renting our house in Lubbock out and our renters are moving in on the 14th. Our house is for sale, so if anyone knows someone looking for a super cute house- let us know!

Matt will fly back on the 18th, then we will all leave on the 19th or 20th.

5. What else am I missing? I am starting another blog- I just need to think of a super cool clever name.

6. I am totally useless when I am sick. I am tough as I am, well let me re-phrase that...as non-whiney as I am, when I am sick I become the biggest baby. I spent so much time and effort dealing with chronic pain I just can't deal when something else comes up with my body. So, I kinda fall apart. Poor Matt!

ok- that's all for now! We need to start packing but i kinda have zero desire plus I need to get better for my date this weekend...Matt is taking me to see New Moon. awww, such a sweetheart!

Exciting News!

Here is the news I am have been promising or rather the news I have sitting on. For those that know me well, you know that it just drove me crazy to not publicly talk about it. I am really surprised that this didn't get leaked sooner since my good friends have known for a while but I swore everyone to secrecy!

Sit down, put your coffee down( I am thinking about your screens)
Ready? Seriously, Ready? You know how I like to drag things about. I mean, I have kept my mouth shut about this for nearly a month...well I guess not completely shut because I did blab to a few good girlfriends!

Seriously, READY???

WE ARE MOVING TO CORPUS CHRISTI!

We are moving in a month- I know in a MONTH! This is all very exciting for us and is a great opportunity for Matt career wise.
I will probably start another blog to document our new life at the beach so be looking for that VERY soon! It's about to be even more crazy in our house. YAY!!!







I threw this picture in just because!







Look how WHITE my legs are and check out how great my scar is looking! I know, I seriously need to do a "scar" update picture. Everything looks awesome!

Not good

I have had a rough few days- pain has spiked in a bad way.  I will talk more about it later just wanted to give you a heads up about WHY I didn't come back to update my blog.

Pain Clinic appointment was horrible as always.  I wish my doctor would get it straight- if he says I had staph ONE more time- I am going to punch him. Hello, get to know your patient.  I know, he is new to me but geesh. Read a chart!  Lots of blood work and xrays of my back to check lead placement.  More on that LATER!  I gotta go chill out.  Not in the mood to write.

Halloween

I am always behind- that seems how I roll lately.
I love Halloween, it's such a fun day!  I am not about the scariness or gore but any day that is about candy- well I am all over that!

My friend Amanda, who I have know since elementary school had a fabulous party on Friday night.  I knew way ahead of time about the party so I started thinking about my costume weeks in advance.  Nothing thrown together this year, I wanted to make an effort! 

I had already set my mind around being some type of greek goddess.  I just thought it would be fun, to get all gussied up and a goddess would be the perfect way!  I found the costume and it just happened to be Venus.  Do you know WHO Venus is?  Well, sit back and let me tell you.  Venus is the Goddess of beauty- I am seeing some irony in this but Matt tells me I am being silly and the only one who will see it that way.

The costume in the front showed off my glorious- err i mean scarred right leg in all it's glory- see that was the word I was going for. ;)  I didn't realized just how short the front was until I saw myself in a picture from the party but I didn't think about it ONCE and I felt pretty so guess it didn't matter.  Back to the costume.  It was short in the front, long on the sides and back.  It was really pretty and I was stoked about it!

I was a little leary about my right leg showing but not ONE person said anything about my scars or even asked what happened to me.  That my friends was a first. Anytime I wear shorts or something that shows scars I always get questions.  It was a great confidence booster.  I wasn't even self concscience about the dress showing off the scars either.  Now, that is hit or miss depending on my mood.  I guess because I felt really pretty the scars were a non-issue.

The best part of the night... I won best costume!  Sweet!  Which means I won a photography shoot from  my sweet friend Amanda!  That is gonna rock!

The kids had a great time on Halloween night!  They got lots of candy that we have hid away for an upcoming road trip.  All in all a good time was had by all.

I go to Pain Clinic this afternoon.  I will update about that later.  Not looking forward to it.

So many thoughts.

I had about 3 potential blog posts written "in my head" but now I can't seem to keep my thoughts straight or even organized. I do this from time to time. Once again I blame anesthesia and lots of medication I have had to take over the course of the past 2 years 10 months. Plus due to these aforementioned items- I get distracted...VERY easily.

Should I blog when I get the ideas in my head? YES! Do I? No!

Topics to look forward to
1. Halloween
2. Being the topic of discussion in a Microbiology class, seriously...They actually discussed ME.
3. Katy is having a baby and other totally awesome things will be revealled!

I will leave you with this. I heard this song a while back on my XM Alt Nation Station(haha that ryhmed) I kinda filed it away and didn't think much about it UNTIL I heard it again on another blog I read. I think there are several of us that can relate to it. Anyway, the lyrics are what are important here. It's ALWAYS about lyrics with me and I think most of you know that I am HUGE music person!

Issue # 867, Pac-Man

I am the first to admit that I am slightly neurotic, well maybe slightly is an understatement. Was I this neurotic 3 years ago? Maybe, but I can't even remember this point of my life 3 years ago. I was "normal", had all the muscles in my right leg, wasn't covered in scars...Just going about my NORMAL life.

I know there was a point in my life when I didn't have to think about every step I took, when I had to adapt my life to my pain level, or activities limited due to my standing or walking tolerance. I went 27 years having a "Normal" life but really what is Normal anyway. If you know me a slightest bit, you probably know I am a lot of things bundled into one awesome person(yes, a little self promoting never hurt anyone)

But Neurotic, I don't remember 3 years ago, October 2006, BEFORE I got sick that I was hand washing queen of America. I am pretty fanatical about cuts, scrapes and bruises too- Did any of this cause my NF? Did any of this cause the Strep A to go insane and attack my body? Was there anything I could of done to have changed the events and outcome of events that forever changed my life? Who know- but what I do know is; it's NEVER done me any good to question if I could have done something to have prevented this. It only leads me down a road that I don't want to go down.

When I first got home after being gone for 2 months in 2007 I had a reoccurring nightmare. Every single night I had this nightmare. It was to the point where I did not sleep at all in the early days that I was home because of the "PAC-Man" dream. I did blog about this once, back in the early days. I am sure you could dig in the archives for it but I will save you the trouble.

Cliff notes version. Matt and the doctors are playing a game(PAC-Man) in the OR, with a big screen TV showing. Basically PAC-man is what is eating my muscle, tissue and fascia. How is THAT for symbolism. I still cringe when I see a PAC-man t-shirt.

Then on one of my favorite blogs that I read I come across this today. I started to feel panic set in. It took a long time to shake this dream and sometimes, it sneaks in. I will NEVER be OK with PAC-man. Don't tell me I will, because I don't want to be. I don't want to make peace with PAC-man- it's not gonna happen. Go check out the link....

http://thepioneerwoman.com/homeandgarden/2009/10/christmas-gift-idea-pac-man-jewelry/

Rainy Wednesday

I have a BIG problem. Well, i have several problems, but don't hold THAT against me! Besides being the most random person you know, I blame anethesia, 18 surgeries in 2 1/2 years will do that do a person. Oh wait, where was I going with this. See, I told you I have problems.

In order for me to stand, I am talking about just standing, I have to lock my left knee and put ALL my weight through my left leg. I have tried other ways and I just can't get it to work. I feel awkard, wierd, and on the verge of falling. I have noticed my left knee starting to ache off and on for the last several months. I even mentioned my knee starting to hate me at my last ortho appointment. Maybe it was the weather change, barometeric pressure drop, the universe hating me, or the fact that I had bad knees anyway from my basketball years. Point is, my left knee is probably on the verge of being in not great shape. FANTASTIC! This is just what I need in my life!

Walking last night was hard, I need my left leg to do the work that my right can't. This is not the time for something to go wonky with my good leg. So, I am grounded and Matt said the pink cane MUST make a reappareance until I get my knee situation under control.

I also need to get something off my chest, it's gonna be cleansing and make me feel better. I need ONE day, or 10 minutes of NO PAIN. Seriously, almost 3 years later and it's really getting OLD. So, Go away Pain. Thank you!